Busy!!

I started my CNA class this week and I love it! It's self paced and yet action-packed!! The best part?

Well I get to shope for CUTE, COMFY scrubs--like these!!!!




In other news, the kids are in Idaho with Justin for the UEA (its a Utah school thing) weekend! I miss them like crazy..however. MAMA gets a break!!! I plan on sleeping until I absolutely can't anymore tomorrow.

xoxox
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moving forward

This whole journey...seperation..has been painful. While it looks like we are headed for the big D- I can only be thankful that it seems like we can be civil.

The one thing I am jazzed a bout.is starting school! I registered this week to start a CNA class!!!! It feels so good to be on a school campus and feel like I'm beginning to do something amazing for myself! I can't even describe the feeling I get, just thinking about it.

The other thing, is I'm back into the gym routine and loving it! I have really wanted to work out for YEARS!!! I am the type of personality, that going to the gym, HAS to be an outing! I have to go there just to work out, or else I get to distracted and will put it off forever.

Lots of big changes. Scary, sad, exciting..no wonder I'm exhausted all the time. I'm on such a roller coaster.

At least for now there seems to be light at the end of the tunnel.

H

Out of the mouth of Jayden

Living with my mormon family, sometimes requires my participation in things like Family Home Evening. Really, since we're all here anyway I don't really care. It was simple, we played a game together.
Jayden asked to say the family prayer

and I quote

"Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for this day. Make sure no harm comes to us.
Make sure papa's coyote call never works, so the coyotes don't come here, EVER.
Oh and make sure that everyone lives to be really, really old until they have to die.
Amen"

I was in tears I was laughing so hard!

Halloween countdown

October is here and if you have kids...that means ITS HALLOWEEN-TIME, even though Halloween is the very last day of the month.
My kids decided they needed their costumes, pronto!!!!!!

So off we went to good ole Wally world. Ya know--I love Halloween but I don't get spending $50 on a costume for your kids that they will wear one time..or maybe a handful of times. I just dont' get it.

Anway we settled on costumes that Mom and kiddos are both happy with!!!

Jayden is a pretty kick ass Batman if I do say so myself.

I can't quite find Jer's pirate costume, this is close. He is the cutest damn pirate I ever saw!

it's heartwrenching

This whole ordeal, is gut-churning. Being seperated from my husband, trying to balance time with the kids...its sooo hard on them. There is a huge part of my heart that wants to put their world back together, to slap a big band-aid on it and call it good and try to grin and bare it.
Then there is the little part in my heart, that belongs to myself...that feels that I can't allow them to grow up with things in shambles the way they've been at home.

I feel sick, I feel torn, I feel plain awful.

Maybe a good nights sleep will help.

another bitching post

Now that I live with my 17 yr old sister, mother nature has decided that our periods should be on the same cycle. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR which means im almost 2 weeks early


ewww

Why have one??

My mom has a cell phone...I know amazing. This from the lady who doesnt know how to turn on a computer!
There's only one small prolem SHE NEVER ANSWERS IT!!!!!!!