it's heartwrenching

This whole ordeal, is gut-churning. Being seperated from my husband, trying to balance time with the kids...its sooo hard on them. There is a huge part of my heart that wants to put their world back together, to slap a big band-aid on it and call it good and try to grin and bare it.
Then there is the little part in my heart, that belongs to myself...that feels that I can't allow them to grow up with things in shambles the way they've been at home.

I feel sick, I feel torn, I feel plain awful.

Maybe a good nights sleep will help.